So, I hate, hate, hate this, but I totally failed to get last Friday’s chapter written. It’s currently sitting at about 1.2k words, and I’m completely fried (even though I have decent chunks of other scenes written).
Frankly, I’ve been overworked and depressed lately (details in my journal, for those who are interested) and the toll is making itself known through my inability to focus, get working, or keep motivated. Fortunately, some of that — the overtime at the cubical job — is going away. However, that just means I have a huge backlog of other stuff staring me in the face that I can’t justify letting continue to slide.
Anyway, the long and the short of it is that I need another stress-free recovery period. So I’m planning on nixing scheduled updates for this week, and to focus on getting my habitat unfucked and my sleep schedule back to normal and my motivation back up, and past the caffeine withdrawal headaches I’m dealing with now that I shouldn’t be needing to caffeinate to get through the work day anymore.
In apology, here is a kitty picture. Yes, that is me trying vainly to hide behind her. Please don’t hate me for all the delaying!
Getting posts going regularly again is a priority for me — but I’ve seen what it does to my work when I’m burned out and depressed, and it’s not pretty. I refuse to fuck up this story by trying to force my way through scenes (if I don’t enjoy writing them I can’t expect anyone to enjoy reading them!) and I’m not going to make myself suffer more than I have to by keeping the pressure ramped up when I’m already struggling.
Thanks for understanding, and again: I’m sorry for being so flaky. I promise that I am doing my best to get better, so I can do better.